Oh, and apologies for not keeping up with my LJ replies. I know there were many posts I should have replied to, both on my own journal as well as others I've been reading. I guess once again, I'm losing interest in things, and LJ is no exception. Don't be surprised if I disappear for awhile; I have a tendency to do such things. I also have a few educated guesses as to why that may be.
Headaches again.. blah. Maybe I should take Tibble's advice and see a doctor. I just don't trust them that much. Yes, I'm sure there are some great doctors out there, but then there are also some double-plus-ungood doctors. Well, we'll see. It's probably just migraines, or dehydration.
I had the option to go visit eddiecoon and keikan tonight, but I'm still not sure how I feel. I think I'm ill, actually. I guess everyone's going over to Fuzzy and their place for a cookout, and then I'm not sure what. By everyone I mean my roommate brunbera, as well as aceswild, Ronin and a few others. Eh, see, finally a weekend I might be able to get out, and I'm here ill. Besides, Tibs has to use the car for work tonight, so I'm kinda stuck. I suppose I could ask for a ride but, eh. I hate feeling "trapped" somewhere, and I don't like bothering others when I need to get back.
That's the thing that stinks about being an introvert. Extroverts seem to gain momentum and energy when dealing with others. Introverts tend to use up a lot of energy trying to entertain guests, eventually wearing them out. I tend to feel uncomfortable in groups, particularly of people I don't know so well. I guess that's why I never really got to know lobowolf or Tibor that well, though Brun visits them most weekends. Damned my shyness! I just never know what to say to people, and I often feel like the odd person out.
I think I need to work on being less sensitive also.
Oh well, I'm not sure what can be done. But then, heh, I tend to be quite an idiot when it comes to social matters. I'm a listener, it's what I do, and probably all I'm really good at in regards to social settings. I just need to learn to change my perceptions on some things, and maybe to open up a bit more. That, along with regaining interest in my hobbies and so forth, so I can stop being such a boring individual. Easier said than done, of course.