June 14th, 2004

Autumnfox mischief

Crazy tired

Crazy tired right now, but that's alright. I had a pretty good night at work, then came home and started up my workout program again. I've been doing some work on some others things; I'll have to see how they mature. Really, I've nothing at all to write about, but I wanted to write something! I just feel pretty good, like I've let loose a burden I'd been holding for a long time. Maybe this letting-go stuff is worth it. Anyway, as I said, I'm crazy tired, so I'm probably not making much sense. I think it's nap time. *zonk*
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    Melissa Etheridge - If I Only Wanted To
Autumnfox mischief

Worrying

Yes, I'm still up. I never did take that nap, as I was too busy with other things. I'm still very tired, and I must say, I'm very surprised that I've been able to keep my mind at a stable level, intellectually and emotionally, all things considered.

I've said it before and I'll say it again. It pains me badly when I see others suffering. I have a tendency to want to draw all that pain inside, and blame myself for all their troubles, and so on, and so forth, even when I know things aren't my fault. I just wish no one had to suffer, though I know that's naive. If we didn't suffer, we'd never grow. We learn so much more from criticism and mistakes than we'll ever learn from praise and achievements.

I'm not sure if I'm going to sleep today. I think I'm going to try to stay up all day, all night, and reset my sleeping schedule for tomorrow. My sleep has been erratic anyway, which is a good thing for neither my physical nor my mental health.

I guess I'm just not sure what to do right now. In my mind, I've done all I know how to do about the situation. I just wish I knew how to do more. I just wish I knew what the right thing was, but the "right thing" seems to change with every person and every situation. *sighs* Maybe there is no "right" way....
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    Melissa Etheridge - Silent Legacy
Autumnfox mischief

Wakey wakey

Okay, I actually did end up sleeping, hehe. Just waking up now. Tibble said he wants to go grab some Indian food, but as it's almost 8:30pm now, and the place closes at 9:30, it's takes half an hour to get there, and he's still in bed.... *chuckles* That's alright, I'm just looking at alternatives right now. The Chinese place is just down the street, but they close at 9, and I'm not sure if I'm in the mood for that anyway.

Yes, yes, we usually do go through a long process just to figure out where to go. *smiles* Of course, I'm quite happy with takeout, or just making something here, but Tibs likes "the restaurant experience" as he calls it. Fine for me either way, though restaurants can get expensive, especially since we're still not up to forty hours at work. And work is hiring ten to fifteen new people. :P I keep saying it, retail management is.. uh.. unsmart. ;) (Hey, it's the most polite way I could think to say that, whee!)

Obviously, I'm in a great mood right now. I'm probably going to draw something later, too. At the moment though, I'm still trying to wake up. *yawn* Well, at least I've tonight off. Now just to figure out what to do, as I'm really in the mood to accomplish something.
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    Weird Al - Horoscope for Today