June 20th, 2004

Autumnfox mischief

Work sucks

Last night at work did not go well at all. First off, after letting someone know about something that peeved me, they went ahead and did it anyway. Next, I found that crew I was working with seemed adamant on letting me do the hardest sections all by myself, while they played around or worked in groups on easier things. All the while, I couldn't find the tools I needed to do my job with any sense of efficiency (and not being efficient at work is another of my peeves).

Things proceeded in this manner for over five hours, culminating with a pallet of furniture falling on me. Needless to say, I had a talk with the "TL". (Gods, I hate this company's propensity for using acronyms for euphemistic titles... he's an f-ing supervisor!) He sent me home, and let me know that if I wasn't feeling well enough to come in tonight, he'd understand. Honestly, I'm still debating.

I'm not really physically in pain, more emotionally frustrated is all. Last night was just too much, and honestly, was cumulating for three days. I'm just glad it's over... for now.

Update: 7:30am

Leave it to Soul Asylum to cheer me up. (It's what I listen to when I'm bitchy, in case anyone's curious.)

I tried to get a good job
With honest pay
Might as well join the mob
The benefits are OK
   (Soul Asylum - Without a Trace)

Hehe, those guys are silly. Seriously though, maybe I really do need a new job, or (gods forbid!) actually work on a career once I figure out what I want to do when I grow up.  :-P  :-)
  • Current Music
    Soul Asylum - Somebody To Shove
Autumnfox mischief

Pain and thoughts

Owie, my upper back is killing me. I'm not sure what I did, or if this is just a continuation of the furniture incident yesterday. It's just hard to move my neck right now, I feel pain moving right down my spine and in the muscles over my scapulae. Hopefully, it's only short term.

I just got off the phone with my mom. She really wants to come and get me tomorrow to visit her for the next few days, although I'm hesitant to do so. This is probably indicative of how I've been feeling in general, really antisocial. Just, in my current condition, I don't think it's fair to be around others, as I think I'd probably only get them down. I just have a lot of things I need to deal with right now, and I doubt anyone needs to listen to my griping. I'm not really depressed or anything, though I do feel my life is out of my control.

I really wish I had gotten outside earlier today, when the sun was still up. It looked like a wonderful day. Maybe that's another issue about working nights. I know it affects my memory and emotional state; maybe I should consider talking with my human resources manager and try to seek a day position. It probably would help a lot, really.

In any case, I do want to get to Maine at some point. I miss being up there, the great rocky forests and the fresh air. I miss my nephews too.
  • Current Music
    Waterbone - Eastern Girl